Depression

I'm usually a happy guy. 90% of the time. Sometimes frustrated, annoyed, tired, litte down 9,9% and now we're down to the last 0,1% really depressed. I know this is over soon so no sucisidal, just shedding tears and depessing  songs like hand in glove, everyday is like sunday, shoreline ,tribute to Linn. It helps just like the bike who give me freedom. But far from a person who listen and touchs you. Never felt this lonely. I got to see what I wanted Krka waterfalls, Zadar, Split, really beautiful! Amazing places! I achieved pretty much what I dreamt of physically. Ran faster than I thought I would do in my, getting older,life.

Nothing of that matters. No one to share your joy ,feelings with. Your friends work, busy with their life and soon l get back to ordinary shit. Hi, what's up, 5 min superficial life. 

Listening to China girl. What l miss will never come back. 

Now I feel better. I know what I want to do. Now, ride the bike to the end of the sea. 

In the future, run faster than Therese. And run till I faint, till everything goes black and wake up with oxygen mask.

I thinking of learning a new language, but I want a teacher who can stand me. Who loves me in their own way. I will get nearer to life that way. 

Language? Maybe I will it will be in sucky French next time. Maybe in Deutsh. Maybe in the tongue my mother taught me when she even wasn't speaking her own mother tongue. Otherwise I would know another language, but she got used to other words. Your right Madonna! Express yourself. Than you, gracias, jag vill tacka livet, sillvouplais, einzweidrei polizei, warkarimazu. Czesc. Ni. Pravda. If you sitting in a bus in Malta and hear 'you won't believe it'. Don't go there for that. Go out and feel your longes, icecold water, wind, hunger, heat, joy, sadness, depression, caves, music, sea, mountain, love, life. Life don't waste it. Feel life. Your my East, North, West and sometimes it brings you very South.